The truth comes out...

I decided to share a few things with you....for those interested anyway. I've spent a lot of time trying to decide what I want to do with my life. I've been feeling like something is missing for a while now. Not really on a personal level but on a life's path kind of level.... if that makes any sense. I've always found it interesting and marveled at those that just knew what they wanted to do with their lives. Those that always knew EXACTLY what they wanted. I've always wondered how anyone could be so sure of anything. I think I'm finally starting to understand. Sometimes things just speak (indirectly of course) to who you are. Sometimes things just seems natural....they seem part of you...they seem like they run through your blood and give life to you. I really do think I'm starting to understand this all now! Actually...I think it's something I've always known. I just never knew or thought about what to do with it. I wish I could tell you what it is....and I will in time....but while I'm getting things in order, I'm going to keep it private. So...then why am I even mentioning it you ask? Here's why......

I've been up in the air about my beads and what I wanted to do with them or where I wanted to go with it all for over 2 years now. Actually about two and a half years now! I've contemplated doing something else. I've questioned if I really liked doing it anymore and I've thought about it long and hard for so long I wonder why I'm just now heading in another direction. Wouldn't you just know if you wanted to do something else? I have the type of personality where I have to change things often. New designs, new ideas, new looks, changing this...changing that...you get the idea. BUT....even the newness of it all starting getting a little boring. I started feeling like there wasn't anything new I wanted to learn or teach myself. I'm not the type of person to want to find out how to make a design someone else is doing. I have zero interest to make anything just like anyone else. How boring and unimaginative is that? Don't be silly...I'm not talking about learning how to make a bead or start a torch...I'm talking color combos and designs here. A round bead is a round bead and a solid color is a solid color....with a little imagination you can take it from there. I'm not saying I'm not going to make beads anymore....I am. How often though, I'm not sure. I still like making beads, I just don't think I want it to be my every single day. It's lost it's luster for me in that way and I'm not sure I'll get that back. I kept thinking I would for a long time now. I've tried everything I can to renew my interest and nothing has really lasted. I can't say I wont wake up tomorrow and feel differently BUT I can say that at this time I feel this way and although it makes me a little sad, I'm looking so forward to my new (not really new) venture. I have so much anticipation and excitement for it I feel I could burst with joy! There's so much I've learned and so much I've yet to learn. I could live another 50 years and never know all there is to know. I love to research and learn about things almost as much as doing them. With this..... I look forward to being and doing so many things....and I believe I can. I believe it's who I am and what I long to do. Although new ventures are a little scary and uncertain at times, it's also the beauty of them.

So...that's it for this post. As mentioned.....I still do have beads. I'm having a sale in my Etsy shop through the end of the month....the link is also to the left of the page.... please take a look! I have new beads to add too but have yet to take pics. Hopefully I'll get a chance soon.

Have a great day! I'm going to go rest and recover from hosting a Thanksgiving dinner at our house yesterday. It was such fun but it wore me out!!!

A happy day to you! Please check back!

Best Wishes,

Rebecca : )